some people will call me kipta (miser).....it's kinda sad...my boyfriend calls me that... and ammu too...it's funny how she says it..."akdom baper moto kipta hoise." which means..i am a copy of my father when it comes to spending....I say there is some truth to that...i think i inherited it..it's in my genes..for two reasons..one, i don't have to bear the blame for it...two...i really think that i should not hesitate so much to buy things i enjoy..and really want to posses..but just can't help thinking 5 million times how it would benefit me...and what i could do with it...i tell myself often..that look oneday u will have a ton of money...but u won't be able to go back to ur past to buy that happiness u would have gotten by buying the $20 black chandelier earring that wanted when u were in ur 20s..

that's not the end of the sadness that my kiptami brings..i once said to angi how lucky she is that she does not feel guilty spending money..but i guess..i said it in a wrong way..which made her self-conscious..she was sad...i felt really bad..did not know how to make up for it...all i wanted to say that day was really to congratulate her on not being a kipta..and being able buy things that she likes..without hesitating unlike me...but i guess she understood me or she believes in the following quote like i do..."You don't mind people u care and you don't care people u mind"..and since she cares she did not mind my saying things in the wrong way...

but my kiptami does not only bring sadness..it sometimes brings happiness too...like it will do in the coming year...i saved up money from working last year..so i will have a lot of money to spare when i go to Uni of maryland...but more specifically something happened today that is a more apt example of happiness out of kiptami...

Today..we went to the mall...sania, affi..and myself...so as usual we went to H&M...and there I found this "jhakanaka" (gaudy/flashy) earring...which i was comtemplating on buying..again as usual was wondering which dress i could wear it with and how often i would i wear it if i bought it...when i was still inclined to buy it even though i did not have any dress that goes with it...I called sania for a second opinion.. she...loved it too and thought i should buy it....no matter what...when i was still being a kipta...she said i could wear it all black...which still was not convincing enough..she went ahead and bought it for me...how sweet!!!!...i mean i was very shy in the beginning that she bought it for..it was almost like i asked her to buy it for me...but then i was verrrrrrrrrrrrrryyyyy happyyyyyyy...

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